Because it is all the same...

The 4th phone call comes in asking the same question. You look upon your resume. It becomes less interesting every day. You realize that the frustration is a combination of many things. Change is necessary for so many reasons.

And so, you grab on to the frustration. You embrace it. It is yours. It is what you feel. It has a power. Do not try to deny it. You can direct it. There is no negative energy. Energy is all the same; its presentation simply differs. It must be paired with its complement.

So rise up. Let the power flow through you. Channel it, change it, make it useful. Improve yourself. Improve your resume. Re-evaluate the situation. Look upon the frustration as a source of motivation. Look upon the lack of challenge as freeing up time to challenge yourself.

Your body is only triggered to 2 responses: fight or flight. No one has ever accomplished anything by fleeing.

It's all so simple...

A snowflake... Snow... You remember snow. You remember snow in all the ways you have known it. You remember trudging through it... Shoveling it... Playing in it... Wishing for it... Praying for it.... You look around with eyes renewed. The orange strip that is the horizon of an overcast sky. The world both seen and unseen.

You then realize that you can't be broken. You are unstoppable. The light that pours from the one you love. The light that overpowers you and makes you free. The light is everywhere. You have actually just refused to see it. You have gotten so wrapped in some silliness that you closed your eyes.

You just forgot the magick. The amazing universe that has no intention... no plan. The universe that doesn't care about your plans. The universe that just is. The universe that doesn't ask why or how or what or when. The universe that asks nothing of you and offers itself completely. The universe we get to live in and interpret and modify. A universe where water can freeze and fall through an atmosphere and be observed by a human. A universe where that observer can be changed. A universe where that observer can change others.

Whatever is bothering you... Whatever is causing you to turn away from the light. It is still there. It didn't go away. It just is.

Like clockwork...

I was reminded of the tendency of other humans to rely on one another. The whole schema is a series of dominoes. Someone you never met does something that causes the train to be late. You are late for work. This causes another chain of events.

But, we are human. We can mitigate. Dominoes that can step out of line when need be would break the chain. We do sometimes try to hold firm. That is our most common mistake. Trying to pretend you are not domino is silly. Trying to imagine that cause and effect does not apply to you is delusional.

So we call the office. We tell them we are running late. If there's enough time, they can mitigate. The train is going to be late. You can't change that. That domino has already fallen. If you are sick during the flu season, stay home. You cannot uninfect yourself. You have fallen. You can choose to bring others down one way or another. If we call out, the work still has to get done. If you bring the flu to work, a half-dozen people call out.